27th june

good morning. we woke up pretty late at around 10ish. made pancakes for breakfast which turned out to be surprisingly really really good. then i made some coffee and we plopped our butts down to watch a few eps of friends. we watched a few from each season until we had to go for lunch. i quickly got ready and then we all went to the fox which was right next door. we ate this cool thing called carvery, which was like thanksgiving basically.

then we got home and played some more pictionary for a bit and some cards and after that we all played outside for a bit more. then we just chilled and talked before we ate dinner. after that we ate icecream and watched this really funny movie called the man from toronto, then again went to bed. everything was really easy with them which was nice and i didnt have to try at all, it was very comforting.

28th june

we had to go today so got some cereal in my system said goodbyes and then head to the train station which i have to say was very cool? anyway on the way to bristol i just worked, wrote down the introduction for my history project which i was really proud of. anyway then we got there and walked to this cool mall where we ate lunch with pop’s cousin. his wife was super nice and we vibed a bit. iraati was so cute but she didnt talk one bit. anyway we took the train home and reached home just in time for dinner. kids were super excited to see us and we ate some pesto pasta and then we went to bed.

29th june

sooo today’s basically the last exciting thing that’s gonna happen- we’re gonna meet aman & ay!!

we dropped the kids to school and then got back home. got ready and then head out the door. we ate lunch at hyde park and then did a bunch of museums. i’m not even gonna elaborate because you know we went to their house so that is basically the highlight.

umm you see i was kind of nervous- i knew everything world be okay. it was just that i didn’t think i could say goodbye to them all over again. yes meeting them again adds to my bank of memories but the pain i have to go through to actually get over them and detach myself is too much. but i knew it would obviously be worth it after all.

we got to their house a bit faster than expected so i didn’t really have enough time to emotionally prep myself if that makes any sense?

anyway we got there but the kids were in their rooms i think. so i sat in the living room and talked to aradhana masi for a bit and played with bucky, until they came down. siddharth uncle was in a meeting to we didn’t meet him right away. the kids came down soon after and plonked with sumeir and then i started panicking cause i physically couldn’t do this again. anyway we sat their for like 5 minutes until siddharth uncle came down. and then ayaan came and sat next to me again- love that thank you. we just got into easy conversation and then he took us to his room. which was actually really cool, cause i feel like i got to know him a bit better if that makes any more sense.

we got taboo and then went to aman’s room to play it. we talked for a bit while we played taboo. it was ayaan and i vs sumeir and aman. well we lost like really badly but it was still super fun and i’m glad that we got to do a bit something other than video games. we talked a nit more than the first two times which i was really thankful about.

anyway that aradhana masi got off the call and then we were ready for FIFAAA. we didn’t get to play any gang beasts. but we played four games am & i two and ay & i the other two. it was a lot of fun, we did the high fiving and everything. we got thai for dinner and then ayaan & i realised that we could vote in the next elections which was pretty crazy. we discussed some doctor, lawyer engineer politics. and aman coined that term which was nice. anyway we played and talked and everything was more comfortable and i just loved it? we had to go home pretty soon- but i got kind of a warning so i got to prepare myself slightly…

we all went outside with bucky & took some really crappy selfies. and then i think i really got to say goodbye. i hugged aradhana masi and siddharth uncle but not am & ay. but it was okay- i actually said bye.

im actually scared now. like what do i look forward to? i dont know when im going to meet them again, if im lucky ill probably see them next summer, but thats like an ENTIRE year away. i think the best explanation is that i actually feel at home with them, its really funny i haven’t understood it completely but they’re my home. even though i only get to be with them a day a year if im lucky. but when im actually with them, literally everything is better. i love them so so so much and i really wish hope and pray that we get to spend some more time together however we possibly can pls universe. though thank you very much for how u’ve brought us together this year. like 4 times?! thats a lot and thank you so so so much for that.

i just dont know if i can do this again. i dont know if i can get over them or get unattached to them. like none of this is their fault, its just the way the world is and where we live in the world because i know and am very confident that they care about me alot and they love hanging out with me and its not just one sided. i know that its gonna be better with time, im just going to have to give it that. the only thing that i dont love is that now that london is over and we’ve met them i dont really have anything to look forward to.

30th june

last day, i dont know how im going to handle this.

anyway i spent alot of time thinking about aman & ayaan but i know i’ll get over it.