today was not so great? i was feeling a bit down again. i texted aman & ayaan after meeting them last night, but ayaan left the message on read. anyway i was overthinking that for basically most of the day. arianna forced me to go to be together, where i was really bored. i played foose ball with them for a few rounds and read my book for the rest of the time. i didn't love it in the beginning, but as i reached the middle, i really connected with the main character? i was kind of like her? i about basically everything compared to an average human, and the people i care about are also 10 times luckier. i just read that a few times and realised that. that i can't make them want to be in my life, they just have to be smart enough to realise that i'm special? i felt a bit better. then we walked out, i got one hot cocoa from this really sweet place & it was raining. then we got home, i was a bit sad cause papa was being well papa, and i wasn't sure if we were going to meet aman & ayaan again. i had hope so i just pushed it to the side. mummy took me out for a walk , and then she told me that we weren't going, and i had a panic attack. it was really scary but it was okay. and then we went, it was really confusing. anyway we went to m&s and bought some goods and ate a crepe. we got ready to leave and i was slightly nervous because i felt that i had ruined everything by msging or something. but luckily i didn't. we were even more comfortable than before, like it was better some how? i don't know why but it just was. anyway we played fifa and gang beasts and i got a bit better. aman & i lost to SUMEIR like really badly which was sad. every time we got a goal we like high fived & one time i shot a goal but it was offside- still dont know what that means and i started screaming and then aman freaked out and then we all just started laughing. it was so much fun. we ate enchiladas for dinner and they were delicious. ayaan and i talked a bit like in between, it makes me feel good that sometimes he makes an effort. it gives me some hope. but then onmessages he makes me feel like the least important person in the world. anyway i just accepted that it wasn't going to happen and we wouldn't be able to keep in touch. but i had alot of fun in the moment. aman had this snap chat friend who he was talking to while we were there and he lookedreally happy, which was good? then we had to leave really quickly and i didn't get to say goodbye sadly. and i was probably not going to see them again but i just kept going.
and jay neil & leena are coming which im so excited about i actually could cry :) today we went to westfield and we did ALOT of shopping. we went by the overground and i listened to some music on the way there. i bought a lot of stuff & my nike's that i had been waiting for. i got a phone cover from typo that i really love, and some clothes from different places. then mummy found a tk max & doughnut time. so we got some of that. then we got back home. i played game pigeon with aman on the way back, & i was really happy that we were even though i lost like every time. then at home, i went through some work and started writing my journal. then we did some karaoke before going to bed.
we went to the science museum & the V&A. it was really close to aman & ayaan's house and i missed them kind of. mummy said that we would meet them again for dinner on the 11th, so i am obviously looking forward for that. i played game pigeon with aman in the morning & then we got ready to leave. the museum was really really cool & so were the streets. we ate some really yummy burgers & sushi. i found the all your perfects nice cover which i had been looking for forever. so i was excited. then we met papa at the v&a and sat in the courtyard and read my book. then we walked around a bit, looked at harrods & then found this cute cafe, i got an iced matcha and it was yummy. then we went to a cheese shop and bought some stuff. then we got a taxi to go home. i helped daiana make some dinner & then folded some laundry. i changed into comfy clothes and also ate dinner. then we watched we can be heroes with ari's friend zara and again i really vibed with her too? now im updating my journal.
today was the queen’s jubilee, mamu & i went to paul’s and picked up some breakfast for the family. then we got some more goods from artichoke, its a cute greengrocers. we also got some really pretty flowers and i set them up on the table. my debit card arrived, and mummy allowed to me to go to gail’s on my own and get some coffee. i was so excited!! and it was super cool. then i forgot to get sugar so i basically had two fix it at home. then we went for the jubilee picnic with ari’s old school friends and honestly it was much more fun than i expected. primrose hill was covered with people and it looked really cool from the distance. we played a parents vs kids cricket match and it was a lot of fun, and i made some friends. i also have to say that i played pretty well. even though we lost to the parents. nina was feeling a bit off so i tried to cheer her up. then we went back home and got some gelato on the way.
today our plan was to go to selfridges and i was super excited, we got there and it was not what i expected at all. anyway i didn’t enjoy it as much as i thought i would. i could not find the LEAN bars that i was looking for sadly so i was a bit off. but then we at e lunch at a sushi train kind of restraint which was cool. it was alot of fun. then we walked back to the car & drove back home. i finished riverdale season one & then i lay down for a bit. i was missing aman & ayaan a bit extra today :( i really hope we get to meet them before we go. then ele mamu & mamu went out for the night so we were in charge, i tried to get some work done. we ate hot dogs for dinner & it was delicious. then we ate some ice cream & watched legally blonde and they loved it. then we went to bed.
today we just chilled at home to finish some work. i worked outside for a bit and attempted to finish my project. i went to nisa local in the morning to get some groceries and then papa and i went to get some coffee. we stopped at the bookstore and i obviously bought something cause i have absolutely no self control. ele mami & i went out again for a walk with cooper and to get some more groceries for dinner. we all made spaghetti carbonara and some veggies. the kids watched star wars and then ele mami & i watched the hustle after and ate some netflix & chill ice cream.
